THE GOD CODE

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YouTuber, CO2umbrella, disusses his understandings on the Kali Yuga, the last of five Yuga cycles as described in the Hindu tradition our Earth is going through -- the Age of Darkness, as well as the other four Yugas. » Go Here if these links are down «

Holding . . . .
What is it we hold?
I sit.
And I continue to hold.
And I wait.

The waiting.
We're all invested, vested . . .
In the waiting.
Enter, the Light.
I continue to hold.

There is power.
And to what end?
More conditioning.
More breathing.
I am at peace.

And I am in motion.
I have been many things.
And I no longer know which to be.
I have had freedom,
This time around.

I've been a musician.
I've been an artist.
I've been a spokesman.
A hermit, a daughter, a mother.
I've been a hunter, a warrior . . . a son.

And I've been a dictator,
A slave.
I've been crucified.
I've been admired.
I've been no one.

I've been someone.
I have loved.
I have hated.
I have felt shame.
I have cried.

I have brought light to others.
I have been without.
I have known.
I am ignorant.
I am powerful and I am not.

I am humble.
I am aware, and, I am in the dark.
I will to live.
I live to love.
I still love to live.

I have been a writer, a poet, a philosopher.
I'm a good listener.
I have sung, and I have cried
Until I had no voice.
And I have prayed.

I have been loved.
I have been hated.
I have caused pain.
I have hurt, myself.
Deeply. Oh fuck, deeply.

I have felt the passion . . .
The Fire.
I have been All,
And I have been no-thing.
I am nothing.

I AM something.
I desire some . . . one . . . else.
I have been trusted.
I AM trust.
I strive for integrity and impeccability.

I bring Fire.
I bring Peace.
I bring Love.
I bring Passion.
I bring Enthusiasm.

I seek guidance.
I seek love.
I seek a place,
To rest my soul.
To have, and to give, of all this.

© Tony Beach 2006-2007

 This is a poem I wrote many years ago on July 20, 1976
. . . . . .

I passed into a sleep remembering
Distant poetry's shore in sight
I heard a call which beckoned
For some time now it has come

Come and find me
For I am the One
A touch in heart I felt and set aside
I awoke again and thought

I knew my beauty
And truth in who I was
And the world ahead of me stood
As I to the one behind

I saw across a field
Standing those I knew upon a hill
They stood looking at me posed in silence
I could not hear them

I looked to myself
And opened my arms in wonder
My eyes fell down encompassing my body
It was me

And then I turned
To see what was behind me now in front
It was dark at first
And then a path appeared

And I took a step in that direction
For I knew it was from where the beckon called
And with me I took one thing
That touch I had in heart

Along this way I passed through those doors once more
Many things which made no sense a sense
My touch in heart flared to light
While my eyes were blinded

And so for some time
I walked
All along though unable to see
I continued forward

For quite some time I walked
Now unable to see either behind or ahead
I was conscious only of my own truth forward moving
For I could not turn around; I cried

The tears with time they dried
And a fresh breeze christened my cheeks
I had had enough
And I was off again

I stood up strong and demanded Life
These things I would not have
And the God I knew acknowledged
I heard from within my own echo

For reverberation trusted me
And I knew it
All else was silent amidst the roar
And I knew it

And for some time I knew
There were paths to chose from
Which I had chosen not to see
There was something to see before

And recalling the hill from where I came
The light in my heart began to flare
No matter what the darkness brought
It could not seem to extinguish its warmth

And here I knew I had to face
The silence amidst the roar
For in front of me I saw a boat
And it was meant for me to launch

I realized again though through the journeys
I still stood still
Change was all around me
While my eyes fell again and it was me

This place I had been had given much
I knew my love and I knew their intentions
But this place and destiny I sought
could not be had but any other way
I had to see it for myself, being silent amidst the roar

I realized I had two destinies to follow
This I saw before and this I saw again
Listen well for here lies another key
I had to face the trust handed me

My course could be charted
And I knew it
And it was time
And I qualified it with all I knew

The chart I placed in a bottle
And set it to float behind me
Among the sea should one find it
Be silent amidst the roar

© Tony Beach 2007

 
What musical allusion tonight will bring
Of memories, dreams, scents and sounds
It's been so long, do you remember when
We'd meet and wander, wonder . . . seek and find

In each other, we loved, immersed in timelessness
We'd found that place so rich and fine
Where our senses found the pleasure, oh and what delight
And lost ourselves in candlelight

What satisfaction found, untold
Of two who played and never lost the other's hold
We'd love and grant each other's whims
Our smiles and eyes told all within

We're closer now than ere before
I know that now, I feel you near
Your body, face, caress and gaze
So sweet I know, I can't endure

Lost in your smile I do recall
Oh so familiar you've made me feel
Sentient pleasures I can't forget
And not let loose your precious gift

Satiety, warmth, our bodies, hearts, and minds
Suspend entangled upon the vine
Two fruits attached as if in one
Our breath, the two, they are now One

Moist and sweet of those in love
The gracious delicate impassioned roar
In essence wild, and sometimes tamed, unbridled core
In silent glow and metaphor

© Tony Beach 2007